Coincidence is defined as: “A sequence of events that although accidental seems to have been planned or arranged.” Coincidences often happen in an unusual place, like bumping into someone when you’re on an out of state vacation. Often, we chalk up a coincidence to living in a small world. What if the unusual place is the space between your thoughts and prayers and reality? Is that a coincidence, a small world experience, or, a God wink?
Something interesting happened to me last weekend. Sunday morning I woke up before my alarm. As I laid quiet and still I began to pray, (as I often do) and set my intentions for the day. Though my body was still, my mind was moving. At least half a dozen times I caught myself on a different path than what I was trying to focus on. I would get annoyed and reel my focus back to my prayers, only to find myself drifting again shortly after. My exact prayer was “God, I’m sorry I’m drifting. Please help me stay focused and aware of when I start to drift.” Every time I caught myself floating away, I repeated this prayer.
Fast forward about 4 hours to when my husband and I were sitting in church getting ready to listen to a sermon by a guest Pastor named Micheal Todd. The name of his sermon was “It’s Not Safer in the Shallow.”
Now before I go into more detail, let me list a few personal things that have been weighing heavily on me and my heart.
- My purpose and intent for the BreadCrumb Trail.
- My previous relationship and current break up with Facebook.
- The feeling of helplessness combined with depression and rage towards the current state of our country.
I was attempting to pray about all 3 of these topics Sunday morning. My drifting state was still on my mind as Pastor Todd began the backstory of his sermon. He had been praying on the topic, or more specifically, a word for God to give him, to be the center of focus for his church this year. When he got the word, he wasn’t excited about it. After a lot of reflection on the word and what God was trying to tell him, it became obvious the impact it would have.
The word was: ANCHOR
(I’ll never do the sermon justice, so I highly recommend watching it for yourself HERE. In the meantime, let me give a very high level overview.)
The overall purpose of the sermon was to challenge and encourage people to go deeper into their walk with God. Pastor Todd incorporated a kiddie pool, floating devices and a lot of water to help drive his point home. (In an extremely humorous and impactful way!)
The anchor symbolized God and the church and the importance of having a secure anchor so you didn’t DRIFT away. I’ve often felt a sermon or a podcast or a book was meant just for me, but never as strongly as I felt this past Sunday. The word drift, drifted, and drifting were used so frequently, just as I had used them in my prayers that morning. My mind stayed focused on every word that came from the Pastor’s mouth as several light bulbs went off over my head.
I recalled my original intent and realized how I’ve gently drifted by using the topic of drugs to get people engaged and political undertones to insure people know where I stand. I often feel the need to include the ghosts of my past because I get more clicks when I lead with a juicy personal story. Everyone likes to hear the ugly about others, because it makes us feel better about ourselves. The political tones stem from being sick of cancel culture and conservatism censorship. I realized I’ve been using drugs and politics as my hook for readers, instead of using God as my anchor and original intent. I realized I spent enough time as an adolescent using drugs as an anchor and it’s time to stop using them as a hook now.
In this area, I realized Facebook had been an anchor. I deleted my account 1 week ago and the experience has been an eye opener. I knew I’d go for my phone every morning out of habit of checking my daily memories, but I didn’t realize I’d go for it when I sat down for breakfast, lunch, dinner, after every work call and meeting, after getting in the car, about 20 other random times throughout the day and then once again before bed.
One of the reasons I deleted my account, besides my refusal to support a platform that suppresses information and conservative views, (oops….there I go again. I’m a work in progress!) was because of how angry and disappointed I was feeling after scrolling. I can’t believe how many times a day I was purposely going for something that made me feel so bad! I realized I’d been anchored to something that was supposed to increase connection, but all it did was disconnect me.
What do you go for that doesn’t serve your highest good?
The feeling of helplessness combined with depression and rage towards the current state of our country.
This was a tough one and a somewhat hard pill to swallow. I reflected on how I was anchored in my faith, morals and values. This is a positive thing. I believe a great deal of people today lack in these areas. I believe that lack is directly tied to what will cause America’s breaking point and be the fall of our great nation. I realized, that those who oppose my faith, morals, and values are also deeply anchored in their ideologies. Their ideologies have a hook in me and are slowly (and very painfully) reeling me in to a mental and emotional state that does not serve my highest good.
While I can stay deeply rooted in my beliefs and oppose those of others, I have to also anchor myself to the only One I should depend on. This doesn’t mean I dismiss the ways of the world. It means I focus more on what I can do, like volunteer and pray, than be attached to what I cannot do, aka, change others.
What has its hook in you and is slowly draining the life out of you?
Though the sermon wasn’t necessarily about what anchors we have in our life, it did help me to recognize what I’ve been anchored to and hooked into. It made me realize how far I have drifted in several areas of my life, many more than I’ve listed today.
Anchors come not only in different shapes and sizes but also in a wide variety. The drink we have to have at the end of the day vs the workout we have to get in every morning, are both examples of an anchor.
Staying stuck in the sins of your past vs living in the present moment, renewed by the grace of God, are both examples of an anchor.
It’s up to us to identify if our anchors serve our highest good, or if it is our anchor that is causing us to drift.
It’s refers to God’s Word and I believe last Sunday was a wink from the big guy himself, reminding me that it is what I need to be anchored to, in order to serve my highest good and the highest good of others.
God bless every person reading and God bless and protect our country.