As someone who loves to write, I have stacks of partially filled notebooks stored throughout my home.
Every once in a while I open one of my half filled notebooks and settle in to rediscover what was once fresh on my mind. This week I pulled out a small, soft covered, pink notebook that had Jeremiah 29:11 across the front.
“I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I had used this book to write about the uncertainties of my life in 2018/2019. The stress of trying to figure out everything was weighing me down and I needed God to carry my load.
This week I’ll share with you the prayer that helped me to surrender daily and what happened in return. It’s written by Marianne Williamson. Though I don’t like her politics, I love her prayers.
I surrender to you who I am, what I have and what I do. May my life and talents be used in whatever way serves You best.
I surrender to You my failures and any pain still in my heart.
I surrender to You my successes and the hopes that they contain.
May the light of Your love shine deep within me and extend through me to bless the world.
I prayed this prayer every time stress and worry crept in. I honed in on the specifics, surrendering the outcome of my business and future income earning opportunities. I surrendered the death grip I had on planning where I was going to live and my geographic location. I surrendered the uncertainties of my relationship at the time.
I re-read my words of surrender every day and eventually tacked on,
“Dear God, I know and trust You have a plan before I have a problem.”
I realized that just because I didn’t know the answers to my life’s uncertainties, didn’t mean they were a problem. I was making them a problem simply because I didn’t have all the answers.
We have a tendency to feel the need to know it all, but it’s not our job to know. It’s our job to surrender and be open to an outcome we’ve yet to think of. It’s our job to trust and listen when the time is right.
Today I have a job that allows me to use my previous experience to grow and develop a business where employees are more than a number.
Today I live in the great state of Texas which I continue to love more and more each day. The timing that got me here was absolutely perfect.
What was once uncertain became the most certain relationship of my life and today I am married to the most amazing man.
Today holds its own set of new uncertainties, like where and when we will buy a home and the future of our family. As time goes by, different uncertainties will come and go for all of us, but God has a plan before we ever have a problem.
Coincidentally I was forced to surrender my dry shampoo and face wash at airport security this AM. In this surrender I handed something over and received nothing in return.
Unlike airport security, we are never forced to surrender to God, but when we do, He gives us in return, the perfect plan He has for each of us.
May God bless and protect our country and everyone reading.